How Wuld Life Be Without You

Yesterday i pm "Her" to go out with "Her"

huhuh...i realy cant hold my feelings to "Her".

i realy love "Her" miss "Her" everyday..

Even i smile, Lough, talk, sleep....i remember "Her"

huhuhu

i Know i cant love "Her"cuz she never love me more then i do.

beside. . .i already have feelings with someone. . . but itu pun, the person i minat pun like x da respon hahah yeah ima fat guy ody.....dosent care la huhuhu

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so i go lepak yesterday with my friends. . .then secara kebetulan that time i stress remember "Her"

......then my friend friends got birthday party and got minum2..

so i go minum la..huhuhu....just minum banyak2. . .to forget it for a while la..huhuu

then i sms si pantat...huhuhh.....cuz i realy in bad feelings...i realy miss "Her"...

CUZ I LOVE YOU !

huhuh but i cant. . .

cuz you already told me when we broke up.

just keep my word. . .

U say me back then i was a fat ass lazy person,

No future,

xda pendirian,

Got No money,

and all bad is me..

You just wait...ill prove that i am change!

ill wake up 4 at the morning doin my drawing...

no sleep doin my drawing!! YOU CALL THAT FAT ASS LAZY KID?

i dont care what u call me..

huhuhu i want mad at you!!!! but .... i cant also..huhuh cuz i deeply in love with ya....but once again...i cant T__T

what u say bad things to me. . .i want to tell you that...

I already change.

I dosen't care you dont want me ...or not love me anymore..

what ive told you the day we broke up. . .

" Ill Keep my all Promise. Because Promise is Promise. . .and thats how i do. If i say....its real Promise."

but i dno whats goin on today....huhu i realy miss "Her"

In prosess im change my self .. . .theres are two bad habit that now i realy work hard to avoid it.

1. Eat while Watching Movies *thats how i end up with big belly . . *

2. Smoking. yeah...im a smoker now . . .cuz all of this shit ive been tru . .

im going to bed...and sms to someone good night that i always do. . .

"Her" still in my HeArT. .

Today is friday.

Hurm...like normal day...

but today is not normal for me...something touching happen to me.
urm as my friends sms me at 10 am...

told me to stay at putatan. so i go get ready then go putatan.

after that we stay at one resotran. . .

while we chating theres some very lil boy who selling kuih karipap and kuih pau.

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the boy walk forward to me and say

"bang beli bang....beli la satu "

then i say with hard word.

"ndak! sory la dik aku ndak mo * suara ngan kasar sikit *

then the boy make his sad face and look down to the kuih and walk pass me. . .and he sit belakang sekali...then...some kakak beli his kuih....i just look at the lil boy...i felt very guilty what ive done...

huhuhuhu seriusly..i wanna cry what ive do. cuz i look at the boys face....full with kesusahan dan sedih hhuhu

so i call the boy ..... i take 3 karipap and give him 10 ringgit...=)

hurm then i ask the boy.....

"pa nama ko"

then the boy say

"sufian bang...* then he look at the kuih

hurm i give my money and then he say thanx..huhuhu

but i still felt guilty what ive done to that kids.....uhuhuhu

after that......"she" sms me.... and i told her everything. . .

why? cuz..to control my tears lol.....MALU OW NANGIS!! HAHA

lagi2 depan dua org kawn lama wakkaka

huhu but i felt realy strage today with my atitude...hurm

but atleast the boy smile ^_^...

but...still.....i felt guilty...T__T and sad.....

is my day for repeating SPM BM. urm i waiting her sms for wish me luck at that day. . .but someone that i wanna forget my whole life but she sms me..not her that i die to wait her sms.

huhu. well at that time...i change the contact Name to the one who i wait to long for wish me luck.

huhu =(

hurm. . .it dosent mater la.

Today i hang out with my old frens sekolah menengah hhe

we stay kapak la apa lagi huhuh

well first we play game at cc..heheh

then we go buy rokok...then at 5.00pm we go to restoran near cc Anip cosmo.

hohoho we stay there till 10.00pm wakkaka...

we talk about old game like..main pemadam,tepak,digimon,pokemon card,yu-gi-oh,guli, hahaha

and so much thing we talk. =) hehe...then her sms me hehe....i told her that we like beliau2 suda stay2 kopi hehe..then she say...bapak2 org suda ka? hahah

xD senyum2 sendiri time sms then kena ckp org gila hahaha xD

Time balik....chung and azam go naik bas..

Me , amirul, Ersafwan jalan kaki ja.

hehe...

hohoho~ today i go water world with gaban, pam, jamal and....rina? lol i hope her name was right cuz i dont very rapat..since we all going to water world, i start to know her very well =)

Hohoho.

hehe i can swim abit suda la . =) hehe. . .1 2 round of my hand then stop hahah. still dono how to swim

hehe when i want having a smoke i check my phone~ she sms me sundently haha~ so hapy lur~

she tell me she otw home~

hehe...then i go swim2 play2 water ..

at that time i saw pondan teriak2 ARGH ARGH...*trip2 perempuan teriak* tapi GARAU ahhaha

so funny that pondan nih

xD

but before that we go hantar chery dulu jhuuhh..she cant come join us....cuz she going to her home far far away from kk.

urm

after we finish at around 5 we go karamunsing go eat there. but i always think why when we all go there mesti hujan =/

lol

OMG The nasi ayam was very fuckin delicious ~

and YEAH! Gaban! u right! the food was very fine~

nice~ haha

me and Gaban oder 1 more nasi ahhahahahahahhaha

=D

then after that we all go home and take a rest~~

was a very bad bad BAD day to me =(

i was so fool not to hold my feelings.

i make a big mistake.

i know she wasn't ready for all this, but my feelings say just tell what u feel and take the risk.

huhuh...T___T what a fool am i ...

that afternoon..i felt like my brain and heart like wana explode with pain and stress......

ergh...why did i fall to her in the first place....how stupid am i...T__T

well its all started with her sweet voice.

When i heard her voice i started to melt~

then i saw her face~

huhuh...i dono why but. . .she is uniqe to me.

huhuhu...everytime i get probs.....i call her...then.. my pain or anger inside me...just POOF! like that in a sec...why? cuz i love hear her voice ... she make me calm that ive never felt before. . .

huhuh...well now...i have to calm my self with my self alone~ ah~ back to normal life with a hate feelings .

i ....realy dont know how to handle this thing....Huhuhu

urm.